First Mini Goal Reached

Well I got back my scales from DH and weighed in this morning. Wowee did I get a huge shock.

I'm down to 83.3 kg. That is a whole 1.7 kg less than my first goal. Holy cow I totally skipped being 84 kg. This mini goal has also now made me OVERWEIGHT. Yes no longer am I obese. I have not been overweight for 5 years!

Might only weigh in every 2-3 weeks from now on, it seems to help.

I also got another .5 ml in my band on Monday, and that I am sure has put me on the edge of the red zone. I'm not pb'ing but I sure as hell am getting stuck on stuff so I'm just trying to learn all the rules as to what I can and can't eat now. I think this has helped a bit in the last few days.

Not at a point where I need to have an unfill, just where I need to keep an eye on things. ;-)

Changing my Ticker.

I've decided to follow in the footsteps of some fellow bloggers and change my ticker to reflect how much I have lost since I was at my highest, just after I had my twins when I weighed in at 108kg (238 pounds). It looks so much more impressive, and is such a good confidence booster to show how far I've come so far. Claim it Nikki, you deserve to. :-) The picture is of me just before I had my boys. Wow, how on earth did I manage?

YOU MUST WATCH MELI MELI. HAHAHAHAHA.

Meli Meli has posted such a funny video she put together. You must watch it. LOL.

http://lovemelimeli.blogspot.com/2010/10/heres-video.html

Love It

x

Why I had WLS.

I have been asked a few times lately why I had weight loss surgery, because to look at me I don’t look that overweight.

I am only in the obese category according to my BMI and my Doctor was a little reluctant to refer me to my Surgeon, but after a heap of blood tests and going through my dieting history it was decided that gastric banding was the best option. My blood tests revealed some very interesting results. It was found that I was borderline diabetic, I have high cholesterol and high blood pressure, and with my family having a history of heart disease I was heading down a very dangerous path. It was also found that the hormone (not sure of the technicalities here) that tells the brain that you are full was almost non-existant so I was having extreme difficulty loosing weight on my own, due to constant grazing and overeating.

I had tried many, many conventional methods to lose weight over the past 15 years. Some including, weight watchers, shakes, Jenny Craig, just to name a few.

I had tried prescription drugs, Reductil and Duromine. I had great success with Duromine and took it on and off (mostly on) for about 9 years right up until I found out I was pregnant with my twins 4 years ago. My Doctor offered to put me back on this but I flatly refused. I hated the side effects and was not keen to go back on them with two small kids around. When I was on them I got very moody and snappy and I just didn’t want that to affect my boys.

Then we found out that I had a huge Hiatus Hernia. I got this through my pregnancy with the twins. My Doctor said this is very common in multiple pregnancies. The surgery required to fix the hernia was almost the same as the WLS so my doctor said I could have them both at the same time, I thought “Yeah Why Not?” I am one of those rare cases that can have WLS for other reasons than being over a BMI of 40.

I am so very happy to have had the surgery and there were times during recovery when I thought, “What have I done? Surely I could have lost this excess weight on my own?” But I’ve come to realize that no I couldn’t. I still have a long way to go to get down to a healthy weight. I am looking forward to that time so I can get my blood work done again and compare to were I am now.

I needed to do this so I can watch my boys grow up and to enjoy a long and loving marriage with my wonderful husband. He is my rock and has stood by me through all of my crazy diets and drug taking. It was time that I finally took control of my health. For me the “Way I Look” is just a positive side effect to getting healthy on the inside, my main goal.

Another pic for Ash :)

Another one from Saturday night. It was a bit dark so I tried a little photoshop. Might need to take a class on this. Oh that's a size 12 jacket there also. Yay.

My First NSV

So my DH and I went out on Saturday night for dinner with some friends, we had a lovely evening. They drank champers, I drank one glass of wine (I can't handle the bubbles, damn it), they ate big steak, I ate small entree. It was just fantastic, how it should be. Well today I downloaded a picture taken of DH and I before we went out, and I must say even I am impressed. I can really see some changes in my shape in the last few weeks. I bought a new dress specially for the evening. It is a size 14 Aust (I think that is a 10 US / medium). I was so excited, I tried on so many dresses in the store, all size 14 and they all fit. I actually bought 2 dresses, but I haven't had a chance to wear the other one just yet.

Yay, on another topic, my DH said I can have the scales back. Now I just have to find them. He is away and won't be home till Monday and he won't tell me were they are. LOL. Will be interesting to see how I go come Tuesday morning.

Hello Lena

Just want to do a quick shout out to a new follower Lena. She is doing fantastic so far in her journey. Woot!!

Hideous Withdrawals

Well I feel as though I am having withdrawals.

My DH has taken my scales away and won't give them back.

The other night I was about to get on them to see how I had done through the day and DH decided I was becoming obsessed with what my scales say. He took them off me and threw out the batteries then hid my scales.

Yes I was indulging about 3 times a day, but he has forced me to go cold turkey and now I'm all nervous and jittery. It feels so wrong to not jump on my scales every morning.

He said I can't have them back until we get to Mount Isa, that is 4 weeks away!!!! He told me I have to measure my progress in other ways, clothes fitting, inches lost, ect... How the hell do I do this. My life has revolved around the numbers on the scales.

ARRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!!

I'm seriously thinking about buying another set and hiding them from him. Kinda like the closet food stash I used to keep. ;-)

My most Awesome Fill Ever

So I had my 3rd fill yesterday. I got another 1.5 ml (1.5cc) in my band bringing me up to 10.5 in my 14 ml band. I mostly settled for soft foods yesterday after the fill, but did get a little stuck at lunch on a small amount of bread, and went without dinner.

Today I have felt the best restriction since being banded (well after the first week anyway). I finally feel like I can only eat a small amount of food (about 2/3 cup of food) and have not had the urge at all to snack between meals.

This is what I have eaten today:

50gr of muesli with half a tub of yoghurt. I didn't manage to finish it.

A small skinny flat white coffee.

Half a piece of grilled fish (couldn't fit in the salad and got stuck on my first chip so ate no more chips, think they might be off the menu now)

Small glass of wine (can't see my self giving this up)

3 small meatballs in tomato pasta sauce, this was left over from two night ago (before my fill), I couldn't eat the pasta as it was hurting (another off the menu) and was pretty content after the meat. The other night I ate 5 meat balls with pasta and cheese and then had a muffin for dessert. Yep I think this one has worked, yippy yay!!!

You girls are AWESOME!

Thanks so much for all the encouraging responses to my last post. It has really made me realise that I'm not in this alone. I was worried that I might be self sabotaging a little too much (yes it is happening to some extent) but at least I can still see the feint light at the end of the tunnel.

Mary (aka: not your average gal) is almost in the same boat as I am. Have a fill, feel great for a week, then feel as though nothing ever happened.

I'm booked in for another fill on Tuesday and it can't come fast enough :)

Also, just for me, I've booked in for a 2.5 hour massage and body wrap on Saturday arvo at a lovely day spa near me. I'm going with my Mum, and I am sooooo looking forward to this little bit of me time. DH and Granddad will be looking after the two tear abouts while they watch the second AFL grand final. Hahaha, think I might have got the better deal here.